you look SO happy on that photo, i almost choked on my pimm's and lemonade when i turned the page. i found myself simultaneously relieved and heartbroken. i can't make my mind up, for a change. it's neither jealousy or indifference, it's feeling like i could have made your smile bigger. but what counts is that it's there, sending waves of good fortune.
so, you're alright.
i managed to find the combination to the lock, it took me ages though. Mr.Special-Item told me i had to use more than the naked eye, i had to listen, be quiet. and bingo, it worked.
there i was, furiously sweating with anticipation, trying to break the damn code, pressing the device next to my ear. click click, CLACK. and then the fresh air of freedom filled the air, and the same sensation as guzzling a cold glass of (unfizzy) lemonade when dying of thirst, came over my entire body and spirit.
and now i'm here, as happy as Larry, because i can start over.
the hat of hate has [officially] been removed.
i'm leaving you again.
hasta la proxima.
I like you a lot
I realize you're in a relationship with someone right now and I respect that.
I would like you to know that if you're ever single in the future
and want to come visit me in California I would be open to spending
time with you and finding out how old you were when you wrote your first song.
I liked you too much
I used to be attracted to boys who would lie to me and think solely
about themselves and you were plenty self-destructive for my taste at the time.
I used to say the more tragic the better the truth is whenever I think
of the early 90's your face comes up with a vengeance like it was yesterday.
I love you muchly
you've been nothing but open hearted and emotionally available and supportive and
nurturing and consummately there for me.
I kept drawing you in and pushing you away,
I remember how beautiful it was to fall asleep on your couch and cry in front of you for the first time,
You were the best platform from which to jump beyond myself,
what was wrong with me?
You rocked my world
you had a charismatic way about you with the women and
you got me seriously thinking about spirituality and you wouldn't let me get away with kicking my own ass but I would never really feel relaxed and looked out for around you though,
and that stopped us from going any further than we did...
and it's kinda too bad because we could've had much more fun.
We learned so much
I realize we won't be able to talk for some time and I understand that as I do you,
The long distance thing was the hardest and we did as well as we could,
we were together during a very tumultuous time in our lives,
I will always have your back and be curious about you about your career and your whereabouts"